I considered not renewing the domain licence for my blog when the annual fee became due. I haven’t blogged regularly since the height of the pandemic and it seemed a selfish indulgence in tough economic times. The resounding no vote for The Voice, was dispiriting for me and devastating for many Indigenous Australians – so to be honest, a Monty Python character’s exasperation echoed in my head, ‘What is the bloody point?’
I respected the request for a period of mourning after the referendum failed. Two weeks stretched to two months and then another health crisis, Christmas arrived, and I thought perhaps the break would be ad infinitum…
I no longer teach and don’t participate as much or volunteer for the several community organisations I supported in the past. The biblical three score years and ten reached last year … perhaps it is time to age disgracefully – and in silence…
Not yet!
After several failed efforts, I’m determined to reboot before this year’s fee is due!
The dire state of global politics and environmental challenges plus concern for the health of family members and friends, including two deaths, make melancholy harder to shake off.
Walking and gardening replaced writing as the main therapeutic occupations to keep me sane. My garden abounds with greenery, including weeds that are thriving on the weird weather climate change is dishing out. However, osteoarthritis and osteoporosis conspire to make gardening days shorter and the ‘to-do’ list longer – almost rivalling my unfinished writing projects.
The poems and doggerel I posted regularly on Instagram and Facebook became repetitive as I focused on being positive or uplifting during the pandemic. (Plus Meta PLatforms Inc., the American multinational technology conglomerate is proving to be an increasingly ‘non-social’ and quite devious media.)
Posting anything challenging or confronting became a rarity and yet social justice and giving voice to those often voiceless were my core aims for starting a blog a decade ago.
Writing helps me understand the ideas that swirl in my head. When observations, feelings, opinions, and imagination are put into words it helps me work through thoughts, helps me ‘join the dots’. The challenge, of course, is to shape them into formats relatable or interesting to others! It’s a constant struggle to proofread, edit, write and rewrite – never mind follow the advice to ‘ignore your inner editor’ and just get on with it!
The media thrives on the power of attention-grabbing news and most of us have personal mobile devices and some form of social media. We suffer a bombardment from Google and other search engine algorithms the moment we activate a device. Even in public spaces giant screens broadcast images and/or sound: in medical waiting rooms, major transport hubs, shopping centres, and government buildings, outdoor billboards… but, how much do we absorb, critically think through, challenge, or ignore?
Some take all news as gospel, others take it with the proverbial pinch of salt, some go down the rabbit hole of conspiracy theories, and others choose to avoid most of it. Journalism in the most dominant media quarters in Australia is at an abysmal low – I admit to being an ex-political and news junkie now. Surviving and coping with everyday challenges and changes takes priority.
This last fortnight my daughter was extremely ill with the current strain of the virus after being diligent with COVID-19-safe behaviour and managing to avoid it for so long! We are seeing an upswing of the new variant but although there are antivirals to ease the effects on someone like her with an auto-immune disorder she was deemed ‘too young’ and her problem not severe enough. It was day eleven before she tested negative.
Our two-tiered health system where most GPs and clinics are businesses leaves a lot to be desired to deliver equity and Medicare still needs fixing to make it serviceable for everyone’s needs – the ten years of neglect and interference from the previous Coalition government has not been sufficiently rectified.
‘So many people are broken’ my daughter whispered when we reflected on not just the last year but the accumulative effect on health and social relationships of the restrictions and lockdowns when the pandemic raged, and the fact COVID has not gone away. The first community transmission in Australia was recorded on this day four years ago.
Actions designed to keep us safe robbed many young people of the important social activities that nurture relationships. Comparable to a destructive world war, the global pandemic plus the ravages of climate change have altered not only our world but the global landscape.
It is hard to escape doom and gloom when violence and conflagration dominate the 24-hour news cycle – Ukraine, Gaza, Yemen, Myanmar, Sudan, Syria, Lebanon, Cabo Delgado, Nigeria, New Guinea … headlines also scream earthquakes, hurricanes, cyclones, bushfires, floods…and in Australia, the shocking statistic of 62 women killed last year because of male violence is stomach churning! (The knowledge that the statistics of women murdered in Australia have soared since I wrote this sobering report in 2015 cannot be ignored.)
Communities and families struggle to regain what was lost – people suffer from those lost to COVID and all its variants, plus deaths from other causes during the lockdown periods when restrictions often meant no physical farewells or ‘normal’ funerals.
Long-Covid is now confirmed and those afflicted hope it may not be a lifelong burden. Our medical system and exhausted clinicians play catch-up with a backlog of patients who delayed or couldn’t get access to treatment during the height of the pandemic… populations have had their equilibrium shaken – advanced technology means the world has never seemed smaller, yet individuals feel powerless.
I hear my father’s voice reciting the Cynic’s Song:
’twas always thus since childhood’s hour
I’ve seen my fondest hopes decay
I never loved a bird nor flower
than the darned thing died or flew away!
Not really the response to soothe my anxious daughter who is an intelligent, compassionate adult and was commiserating with me after we received news of the death of a longtime family friend. The bereavement added to the steady flow of troubling news.
It is a small consolation but sharing our stories might help towards more understanding between generations. In living memory, some parts of the world have always been in crisis, sometimes the events touched domestic politics and citizens. For most of my life, social media and the Internet did not exist and there was a filter as well as a timelapse, plus misinformation was not as easily spread, but turmoil and generational despair are sadly, not new.
When I think of the people we elect to make decisions about how we live I wonder what legacy they think they are leaving for future generations. Do they think about how they will be remembered? If they have children or know others with children you’d like to think the health and safety of future generations is first and foremost in their minds but when we look at where mankind is at the moment nothing seems further from the truth. Truth-telling Commissions are a necessity for every society and not just to examine the distant past!
In one of the last anthologies I prepared from my Life Stories & Legacy writing class, I wrote in the foreword:
In writing class, we discover a lot about ourselves as well as glimpsing the lives of others. What will our legacy be? Do the significant people in our lives know what we have valued most? What we thought was our purpose? What we have achieved? What we learned about life as we lived it?
Do they know how we navigated life’s challenges? Celebrated life’s gifts or simply enjoyed beauty every day? Do they know we have found benefits from challenges as well as from blessings? Do they know how we used moments of reflection to make life-course corrections or appreciate joy?
We discover answers rooted in stories of the past or life stories of significance in the present, touch emotions, engage as all good writing should.
The desire to leave wisdom, knowledge and love for generations now and those to come, a great motivator to write and the camaraderie in class keeps the pen moving. It isn’t only celebrities and public figures who wish to leave a legacy—many people want to reflect on life, share how they have made a difference, perhaps influenced someone, whether children, grandchildren or friends.
To record our stories is important and in class we learn various creative writing skills and techniques to make what we write as interesting and unique as possible. Poetry and prose, adding graphics –– all make writing varied and appealing to readers. Triggers can lead to ideas for fiction too.
I have been privileged to help some of my ex-students and others publish their life story or a memoir and have blogged about some:
More Than Irish Eyes Are Smiling
Purpose, Persistence, and Perspiration make Edna a Published Author for her 90th Birthday
‘The History of a Carrum Family’ is a valuable asset added to local history
Memory is a complicated thing, a relative to truth, but not its twin.
Barbara Kingsolver,
Animal Dreams
So as the first month of the new year is almost over I’ll try and emulate the many wonderful creative people who have remained productive through global and domestic upheavals and attempt to reinvigorate my own writing desires and dreams. I hope reviving this blog is a useful first step towards the need to write regularly to improve my craft.
I acknowledge the Boon Wurrong people of the Kulin nation as the traditional custodians of the unceded lands and waters where I live. Always was, always will be Aboriginal land